Posts Tagged ‘poetry’

That’s Life

December 17, 2012
That's Life.

That’s Life.

That’s Life

by Bill McCurdy

 

We come into this world alone – and someday leave the same,

Joy and sorrow to the bone – yield miles of smiles and blame.

Some plans we have come true for us – while others bend in time,

Bowing to reality’s sword – when wisdom cuts sublime.

 

What happened to the rainbows – of our youthful destiny?

Who rearranged the future – that we cherished hopefully?

Where did we start to question thoughts – that once danced sacredly?

When did we first see – clear and straight – those answers rest with me?

 

Money, Power, Fame, and Comfort – The Directors of Ambition,

All lead us on a weary path – as Gods of no Contrition.

They leave out Love and worse – its source – demanding all we are,

And when they’re finally done with us – we haven’t traveled far.

 

Until we see that God Is Love – and Love is all we need,

And giving through our passion fills – our soulful path from seed,

We cannot know the mindfulness – of who we really are.

We sputter in the moonlight – waiting for a shooting star.

 

And if that star arrives for us – in low or burning light,

We finally see the waywardness – of personal lost flight,

And if we give it up – to the life of giving all,

Our life will fill with “God Is Love,” – and God and Love are all.

 

That’s Life.

 

 

 

 

 

 

Reprise of The Pecan Park Eagle

July 9, 2012

“In our sun-down perambulations, of late, through the outer parts of Brooklyn, we have observed several parties of youngsters playing ‘base’, a certain game of ball. – Let us go forth awhile, and get better air in our lungs. Let us leave our close rooms – .the game of ball is glorious.” … by Walt Whitman, excepted from the July 23, 1846 edition of the Brooklyn Daily Eagle.

 

The resurrection of my personal love of the game of baseball dates back to the summer of 1993, the 4th of July, to be exact. My eight-year old son Neal and I had walked from home to an abandoned school yard that then existed near our house to bat and throw the ball around for an hour in the late morning light. It was beautiful. The visual wisp of purple wild flowers sprouting everywhere still covers the canvas of my memory of the baseball sounds and cries of childhood delight that filled air the kind of summer fun that used to pepper the sandlot days of my own early times in Pecan Park over in the Houston east end. I held on to that feeling that I once feared had been lost forever. My only son had come along late, but just in time to help me find it again on this new and nearby field of dreams.

On the walk home, I spied what appeared to be an old baseball in the tall weeds. It turned out be only the cover of an old ball that had been tightly ensnared in the wild overgrowth some time in the past. Still, I pulled it free and carried it home with me.

“What are you going to do with that old thing, Daddy?” Neal asked.

“I have no idea,” I answered.

When we got home, I placed the ancient baseball cover on the kitchen table and sat down with it and my writing notebook. In ten minutes time, “The Pecan Park Eagle” had written itself. As the “writer,” I was only the cardiovascular vessel that carried the rushing blood of its own life. In time, of course, it became the signature reason behind the name  and purpose of this blog column. So, I drag it out every now and then, usually around July 4th, for those who have never seen it before.

Have a nice week, everybody – and keep your spirits soaring high.

 

The Pecan Park Eagle By Bill McCurdy (1993)

 

Ode To An Old Baseball Cover I Found While

Playing Catch with My 8-Year Old Son Neal

In An Abandoned School Yard.

 

 

Tattered friend, I found you again,

Laying flat in a field of yesterday’s hope.

Your resting place? An abandoned schoolyard.

When parents move away, the children go too.

 

How long have you been here,

Strangling in the entanglement of your grassy grave,

Bleaching your brown-ness in the summer sun,

Freezing your frailness in the ice of winter?

 

How long, old friend, how long?

 

Your magical essence exploded from you long ago.

God only knows when.

Perhaps, it was the result of one last grand slam.

 

One last grand slam, a solitary cherishment,

Now remembered only by the doer of that distant past deed.

Only the executioner long remembers the little triumphs.

The rest of the world never knows, or else, soon forgets.

 

I recovered you today from your ancient tomb,

From your place near the crunching sound of my footsteps.

I pulled you from your enmeshment in the dying July grass,

And I wanted to take you home with me.

 

Oh, would that the warm winds of spring might call us,

One more time, awakening our souls in green renewal

To that visceral awareness of hope and possibility.

 

To soar once more in spirit, like the Pecan Park Eagle,

High above the billowing clouds of a summer morning,

In flight destiny – to all that is bright and beautiful.

 

There is a special consolation in this melancholy reunion.

Because you once held a larger world within you,

I found a larger world in me.

 

Come home with me, my friend,               

Come home.

 

 

 

 

 

Hell’s Big Game

June 22, 2012

Hellzapoppin Park, The Netherwprld. (Actually photographed in Colt Stadium, Houston Texas, on just about any Saturday afternoon in June 1962.

Hell’s Big Game

 

Once upon a red-sky time – in a ballpark down below,

All hell was burnin’ brimstone – as was the usual show.

They had a game a churnin’ – as they played into the last,

The Devils 3 – The Demons 3 – the 9th came hard and fast.

 

The game had much a ridin’ – as the Demons came to bat,

The Devils aimed to goose ‘em – and then to drown the cat,

By bringin’ Dolphie Hitler in – to panzerize the Demons,

Lucifer hoped to kill the need – for extra inning schemins’.

 

Old Dolphie was a cranker arm – goose-steppin’ every pitch,

But when he let each damn ball fly – many slipped a hitch,

And sailin’ wide and wild, they flew – and landed in the ditch,

And Dolphie walked four Demons – before he killed the glitch.

 

And headed for the bottom – of Lucifer’s last hope,

The Demons led the Devils – by a 4-3 Hitler mope,

Twas time for Satan’s big sticks – to show up with the soap,

And wash away disaster; – they simply had to cope.

 

But Saddam went down swinging – and Osama pulled up lame,

And Qaddafi bit the bullet – the lodged one in his brain,

And the Demons took the Devils – moved up to higher ground,

To the Underworld Series – off they go, …

 

Are the Unholy Ghosts around?

Forever in the Wind

August 4, 2011

Forever in the Wind

Kicking tin cans clanging down a dusty red dirt road,

Tromping through the pine light, specks of sun and shade explode.

Quiet, steamy wind stirs the needles at our feet,

Sending up a sometimes roar that quells the summer heat.

We’re walking in our bare feet, but our soles are tough as leather,

We rise each day to play the game – in any kind of weather.

We’re on our way to the Sweet Lake Field – down by the Pokee River,

It’s time to pound the baseball ’round – and crush it to a sliver.

The sound of bats in metered bang – upon the rock-hard dirt,

It’s something just to do in time – we are warriors on alert,

As we jog and march and muscle and hop – our way to Saddler’s End,

The sandlot we are seeking – lays awaiting – ’round the bend,

And we are fast approaching – a day that has no end.

Where life on the summer sandlot – rolls on – forever’s friend.

Come home with your mind and soul – to the sandlot, even now,

If only for ten minutes – or so – let reverie be your plough,

Do it – and inhale, once more – the precious fragrance – of eternity.

Base Ball To Day

May 3, 2011

This "Base Ball To Day" photo was taken by W.O. McCurdy, Publisher and Editor of The Beeville Bee weekly in Beeville, Texas, sometime near the Turn of the 20th Century. (Can you read the street banner?)

Wagons creak and old friends speak,

Bouncing their laughter on the merry oblique,

Down dusty Washington, sheered cheek-to-cheek,

In the land of the bold – and no prize for the meek.

It’s “Base Ball To Day” – ‘gainst the Goliad Goliath!

The Beeville Bees need their very top tryith

To win this big game of bat, ball, and base,

Then to dance into night all over the place!

The game’s played for fun – but the fun is to win,

Anything less – falls a shade into sin,

‘Cause “Base Ball To Day” crawls under the skin,

And it gets you, old friend! – So “Cole Porter” on in!

Night and Day, Baseball – You are the One!

Only you, beneath the moon, and under the sun!

Whether near to me – or far!

Makes no difference where you are – I think of you,

… Base Ball To Day!


Summer Baseball

March 13, 2011

Summer Baseball

(Sometimes we write on the wind of the days that used to be. It happened to me in the summer of 1969  when, as a young man. the muses working my corner wrote “Summer Baseball” through me the old-fashioned way, preempting my pen and paper when I was supposed to be using them to check the type-written draft of an annual report from my office in the Texas Medical Center.  “Summer Baseball” found its evocation in my constant imagery of the Pecan Park Eagles sandlot home, and especially as we played the game there in the summers of 1949 through 1952, before the climate of high school and other playing opportunities and interests scattered us all from that hallowed ground forever.)

Time was when summer meant baseball on a vacant lot,

Chasing a ragged brown horsehide as it zoomed off

A wooden bat across the white heat of the morning sky,

Only to be pursued by a blue-jeaned boy,

Who knew he would be there when the ball came down.

From the crack of the bat until the thump in his glove,

The boy knew the baseball like one knows an old friend.

They had met so often in play on the sacred neighborhood ground.

Texas leaguers, blue darters, line drive scorchers, grass skinners,

Pop flies, Sunday screamers, worm burners.

It made no difference at all to the boy.

He knew that each pursuit would end securely

In the web of his Rawlings Playmaker.

No thrill could surpass the loud crack of the bat

That signaled to the boy in the field of the far chase to come.

– It was the sure sound of the long ball.

C-R-A-C-K!!!

And the boy would race on bare, calloused feet

To some deep point on the vacant lot.

Then, somehow, as though guided by a mysterious inner radar,

The boy would turn his head and look skyward,

At the very moment his old friend was beginning to descend

From that grand ride through the summer air.

T-H-U-M-P!!!

The chase had ended in a rightful wedding of ball and glove!

Simple innocence – but it was love – and it was free.

And now the boy is a man who sits in an office,

Away from the summer heat and that joyous vacant lot of long ago.

Sometimes, even now, he peers through his sealed workplace window,

And he again feels the white heat of a mid-morning July sun,

And he wishes only for ……………….. one more chance.

One more chance to race the wind,

And to follow the flight of his old friend,

Coming down from the billowing clouds in the blue summer sky,

Coming home to the welcoming glove of a kid in love with baseball.

Come back to me, friend baseball, come home,

And never go away again. …. Ever.

Remembering the Buffs

February 21, 2011

Houston Buffs Forever!

 

The thundering hooves of memory,

Stir our souls to rise and roar,

In hot pursuit of destiny,

On passion’s fiery shore.

 

And so it was with baseball,

In sandlot games galore,

Inspired by human buffaloes,

Into the ball bats tore.

 

We played from light to fading sight,

Our twilight whisper game,

And then we slept to rise again,

And play till we fell lame.

 

And if the day shall come for us,

When echoes call the herd,

We’ll race with all abandon,

To the place it once occurred.

 

“Pick up your glove and follow me!”

Is the order of our day.

“It’s time to play the game for keeps!”

Our hearts can’t wait till May.

 


The Pecan Park Eagle Revisited

June 13, 2010

The Pecan Park Eagle: Ode To An Old Baseball Cover I Found While Playing Catch with My 8 Year Old Son Neal In An Abandoned School Yard in 1993

Tattered friend, I found you again,

Laying flat in a field of yesterday’s hope.

Your resting place? An abandoned schoolyard.

When parents move away, the children go too.

How long have you been here,

Strangling in the entanglement of your grassy grave,

Bleaching your brown-ness in the summer sun,

Freezing your frailness in the ice of winter?

How long, old friend, how long?

Your magical essence exploded from you long ago.

God only knows when.

Perhaps, it was the result of one last grand slam.

One last grand slam, a solitary cherishment,

Now remembered only by the doer of that distant past deed.

Only the executioner long remembers the little triumphs.

The rest of the world never knows, or else, soon forgets.

I recovered you today from your ancient tomb,

From your place near the crunching sound of my footsteps.

I pulled you from your enmeshment in the dying July grass,

And I wanted to take you home with me.

Oh, would that the warm winds of spring might call us,

One more time, awakening our souls in green renewal

To that visceral awareness of hope and possibility.

To soar once more in spirit, like the Pecan Park Eagle,

High above the billowing clouds of a summer morning,

In flight destiny – to all that is bright and beautiful.

There is a special consolation in this melancholy reunion.

Because you once held a larger world within you,

I found a larger world in me.

Come home with me, my friend,

… Come home.

… Bill McCurdy, July 4, 1993.

The Pecan Park Eagle Revisited.

February 1, 2010

"To soar once more in spirit, like The Pecan Park Eagle, high above the billowing clouds of a summer morning, in flight destiny - to all that is bright and beautiful."

With most of us getting tired of the cold weather, and with some of us having to call the repair guy this morning because the heating system failed last night, this seemed like a really  good Monday morning to remember one central weather fact in our daily lives. – We live in Houston, Texas. The normal furnace of our shared lives will be back among us soon enough – as will all the wonderful things we love about spring in Houston. Thoughts of baseball, the beach, blossoming vegetation, watermelon, cold beer, and the cornflower blue skies that house the billowing white cotton candy clouds of our almost forever summers all serve to remind us that we will soon enough be out of the cold and into the heat that will surround us in ways that will seem eternal.

With the real time temperature on February 1st in Houston at 7:22 AM hovering near 39 degrees at 7:25 AM, it seems like a good morning to revisit the poem I wrote several years ago that sort of side-glances off this topic. It wrote itself through me one SUnday afternoon when my then young son and I came home from playing a little flies-and-rollers baseball at what was then an abandoned school yard near our home. The trip,  and the discovery of an old baseball cover in the weeds as we were walking home,  pulled the trigger on my personal memories and tweaked my lifelong bond with baseball. I placed the old baseball cover on the kitchen table when we got home that day. Then I sat down with pen and paper and wrote this poem inside of ten minutes.

My bond with baseball is a tie that goes all the way back to my East End Houston sandlot days. Those were days and experiences that I simply shared with a lot of other kids from my generation as we who grew and came of age in Houston during the years that immediately followed World War II. Other kids in other American towns and cities share the same heritage, thanks mainly to our fathers.

Our dads from the great generation gave us the game. Then they got out of the way and allowed us to discover everything else we needed to learn about baseball on our own. That all began to change with the advent of Little League, but those of us who were lucky enough to have known the sandlot first learned some things no adult could have taught us. We also got to bat more often and practice catching more live balls in actual game play – while also working out game play and ego disputes on our own.

What none of us understood at that time is clear today: Things would never get any better for us at the heart of life’s joy than they were back then on the summer sandlot.

One more time, here’s “The Pecan Park Eagle,” the poem that never really leaves my awareness these days. You see, finding that old baseball cover on that particular summer day in 1993, for me, carried all the power of running into a lost soul mate after decades of heartbreaking separation.

""Tattered friend, I found you again, laying flat in a field of yesterday’s hope."

The Pecan Park Eagle

Ode To An Old Baseball Cover I Found While Playing Catch with My 8 Year Old Son Neal In An Abandoned School Yard.


Tattered friend, I found you again, Laying flat in a field of yesterday’s hope. Your resting place? An abandoned schoolyard. When parents move away, the children go too.

How long have you been here, Strangling in the entanglement of your grassy grave, Bleaching your brown-ness in the summer sun, Freezing your frailness in the ice of winter?

How long, old friend, how long?

Your magical essence exploded from you long ago. God only knows when. Perhaps, it was the result of one last grand slam. One last grand slam, a solitary cherishment, Now remembered only by the doer of that distant past deed. Only the executioner long remembers the little triumphs. The rest of the world never knows, or else, soon forgets.

I recovered you today from your ancient tomb, From your place near the crunching sound of my footsteps. I pulled you from your enmeshment in the dying July grass, And I wanted to take you home with me.

Oh, would that the warm winds of spring might call us, One more time, awakening our souls in green renewal To that visceral awareness of hope and possibility.

To soar once more in spirit, like The Pecan Park Eagle, High above the billowing clouds of a summer morning, In flight destiny – to all that is bright and beautiful.

There is a special consolation in this melancholy reunion. Because you once held a larger world within you, I found a larger world in me.

Come home with me, my friend, Come home.

… Bill McCurdy, July 4, 1993.

Today.

January 2, 2010

2010: The Dawning of a New Day!

Happy New Year again, Dear Friends,

From smack dab in the middle of today!

At the dawning of 2010, it might be well for us

To spend a few seconds reflecting upon some ancient truths

About promises and resolutions; apologies and regrets:

We cannot capture what is yet to be

With our promises.

We cannot regain what might have been

With our regrets.

We cannot reach tomorrow faster than

The unpromising sun.

Nor can we hold onto yesterday

With our tears.

Life is always, here and now, today,

The place that empowers us with wisdom

From the past, as it prepares us for the future

With a more workable vision of what is to be.

Let us live today, not by how we simply pass the time,

But by how we put ourselves fully, heart and soul,

Each single day we wake up breathing life’s new air,

Into the loving passions of our lives over time.

Can today be enough of life for each of us?

It had better be. It is all we have and it is very large.

Today only seems small when we fail to realize

How truly big it really is.

Today is the universe of our human experience,

Where all things play out on the basis of what

We each do – and fail to do, about the stuff that matters,

Here and now – from today to forever.